I understand that. When I lost my ex T (she dumped me out of nowhere 1 night) for a long time I think I was afraid to let go of her. In fact, I think that fear still lingers sometimes even four years later. I think I still want to run into her somewhere (very unlikely), I still want to say things to her. If I let go, what do I do with all that unsaid stuff? (we had no "closure" of any sort) I have a new T and I just adore her tons more than old T, but still, a part of me hangs on just a tiny bit.