Dear T,
I don't feel safe opening up to you anymore. I know a few sessions ago I asked you to push harder, but when I ask you to stop using something as an example, I mean it. You need to stop. You tried to push a little farther today and that was not okay.

I am not sure how to trust you right now. I need to feel loved as a person to open up and today I did not feel very loved. There were a lot of things I could of and would of shared if I had felt more safe today. It's probably all my fault anyway - all my stupid "I can't" mentality. Well next session you'll get a dose of "I chose" instead. It's quite easy to just phrase it all as "I chose to." I'll play your little game.

And please stop with the "just focus on the good things" crap. Do you have any idea how impossible that sounds to someone who is sliding deeper into depression each day? Can't you see that?

When I left today I felt emotionally beat up. I know that's not the most accurate way to describe it. That's all I can think of right now.

I may just cancel our next appointment....I don't really see the point of continuing after today. I am better off on my own.