Today I was at work and everything irritated me. I just came back from FMLA,last week after 10 weeks off, the only reason I went back was for the Health insurance. My doctor up my dose of Lamictal yesterday to help with agitation and moodiness. I felt a little better today but then my colleague told me to go home, I was working a little late, apparently I looked like crap, that I needed a break and to calm down. Didn't punch anything yesterday but it was so difficult not to. Already took 2mg of zanax as soon as I got home and fell asleep for 2 hours without realizing I knocked out. I understood why people cut but never grasped it until last weekend. I didn't cut but I grasped it. I guess that's why I punch walls. I'm glad ya'll are there to talk to. It helps a lot. Thanks for responding. I don't feel as alone.