I get it. Just keep pushing through....those voices will quiet eventually...try to focus on other things instead of weight...your energy levels, your mood, etc...i know its hard but this is the right thing...for the long term....you can't not eat forever....with regards to the comment about your weight now, your doctors are objective eyes...chances are pretty good they are going to try to keep you in your healthy weight range, so if you cannot trust that your parents want that and you think that they would let you keep gaining, then maybe another resource would be to trust in your doctors...also, I wonder if it is in your head..just an image you have of what thin and overweight are...i know i'm guilty of this sometimes too, but if that isnt what it is...be patient as your body readjusts...your metabolism and everything has to learn again how to handle food....hand in there, eat healthy foods, and your body will learn to work with you and even itself out.