I have been working hard at analyzing myself, my actions,& my emotional responses to others. I suffer from double depression, Ptsd, general anxiety disorder, and self mutilation tendencies. It is hard for me at times to know what is playing a part in my emotions but I believe that they all play a part. One thing is for sure and that is I always feel guilty, pathetic, and although I would consider myself a rational person, deserving of some of the horrible things that have happened to me. Which I know none were my fault it is hard to change my mindset. So, every time someone or something triggers these feelings it is difficult for me to suppress them and I tend to ruminate about them over and over again until I feel like I am going mad. Is anyone else experiencing this? And has anyone found something that works for them to rid themselves of these feelings and or stop the rumination that takes place?