Hello everyone. I've been quiet for awhile, but I'm slowly coming back.

I have recently embarked on a massive self-improvement journey. I am going to study for 2 hours everyday, read for pleasure daily, exercise, keep up with the news...basically become the smart, capable, "on top of things" person that I was when I was 17.

My problem is that I am tempted to give up on it at every turn. I've tried so many times to drag myself out of this pit of mediocrity, always unsuccessfully. But I can't live like this anymore. I hate the person that I currently am. I NEED to become an interesting and interested person again.

My bipolar mood swings also make this a difficult project to complete. Obviously when I'm depressed, I don't have the energy to do anything. When I'm hypo I'm pretty good at keeping up with it all, but I always inevitably fall. Does anyone have any suggestions for how I can accomplish this transformation that requires such dedication? Thanks.