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Apr 19, 2012, 07:05 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2010
Location: Michigan
Posts: 6,543
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Bless your heart -- you're really struggling, aren't you!  I don't know if you believe in God or not, but you have to remember that you were made in God's image and HE loves you! He walks with you thru every trial and tribulation to make SURE that you make it thru!!! You are NEVER alone! Remember that, ok?
You ARE worthy of being loved! You sound like a very caring, intelligent, person! I don't know what your past was like, but obviously it was very traumatic.  You must have some very deep-seated issues that need to be worked on -- and a therapist is the one to work on these with. My childhood sucked too, and I carried all that into adulthood until I got sick and tired of being sick. Finally I sought out treatment and BOY was I glad!!! I got all those issues out in the open where they needed to be -- and that freed me from being strangled by them. My therapist showed me how to put them to rest -- how to bury them so they couldn't hurt me anymore!!!
PLEASE -- find a good therapist -- you DESERVE to live a good life without the fear and self-loathing.  You are a GOOD PERSON and your future depends on your getting some help. Please do it soon, ok? I'm sure your wife will support you thru this. I wish you the very best. God bless & please take care. And let us know how you're doing from time to time, ok? We care. Hugs, Lee
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