Thanks, everyone, for the feedback....

And Kacey, you are right on so many levels. I hope I am at a place where I can talk to T about it. Everything is just scrambled up in my mind right now, and I can't seem to focus on anything. My mom, who is deaf, had a significant surgery yesterday - so I was at the hospital until late last night. I am going to be there all day today (and for the next few days) - except for my T session today. I'm just not sure I can shift from being attentive to her and her needs...to getting back into my self - going from being cerebral to being emotional. It is SO difficult for me to do.

Plus, I'm feeling guarded and out of sorts to begin with......ACK!!!!