Kacey, sorry I've had little to say, and I don't have time now since I've got to run, but I've read everything through and you have had some awesome comments I hardly need to add much to. I want to say, though, that granite is right - it seems to me you have grown so much and are handling this in an amazing way, not that it's easy for you, I see that it's hard, but I also see you being aware of yourself, your emotions, being aware of T/his emotions/motives, and making efforts to be clear about your perceptions and be in wise mind.
I hope it goes well with the T you're seeing today. I will be thinking of you!