Spiritrunner - I do appreciate all your help and that of everyone else. My life is not bad, I have generally learned how to negotiate other people, I know how to extract myself, and there is no reason for me to feel bad and I know it. Connection with the therapist seems improbable and ultimately useless since I cannot understand how it is supposed to help = how I would use such a thing to help me. It is like being handed a bicycle in the middle of the ocean.