Omfg... I truly can not believe I'm still waiting for a private psych bed. I thought I was the insane one...it seems the psych system in public and private are insane. I was already going thru he'll before I asked for help (hospital admission ). I'm broken n shattered. The nightmares between now and then have been unbelievable. Dr's are meant to help not make a bad situation worse. even when my T called me n harassed me oht of het precious holiday time. Omg. I feel so alone, shes my main only support n she got cranky at me. Wot tbe hell.

real 05:55 PM 03-30-2012 Okay...hello I’m nervous as anything writing this......and breath Forreal. I went to T today and after discussion, we agreed a period of hospitalisation may be necessary. I have been struggling with a severe unrelenting depression and suicidal ideation for over a month. It has been horrible trying to drag my body around to get ANYTHING done. Plenty of the basic things have proven elusive e.g. shower, teeth, hair, clothing, forgetting to take meds, going off meds cuz i had no energy to go up street and more, regularly sleeping for about 15hrs straight etc Also my T is going away for easter holidays (probably 3wks). I normally see her 3 x week. Whenever she is on leave/holidays, I do poorly. We think it takes me back to all the rejection of my past when I was young, and every other person who has left me. Hence, I’m a basketcase most times she’s away. So now we have agreed to a hospitalisation, it doesn’t mean it gets easier for me. I have to wait till there is a bed available. This is private psych hospital, but still gotta wait and cuz I need a single room it takes even longer. Last time it took 3weeks. AAAaa..not good. Im nervous and would love some support if possible. I have wanted to write on here for a while, now Ive taken the plunge its still scary...will they think im a total fruitloop. I did want to say thank you to you all, as i have really appreciated reading all the care and support i have seen here. That’s very encouraging to read. So thanks you lovely people.