Over the last few days were very hard, we went to a friends birthday party and it felt as if everyone there was trying to get me it was like everyone was looking at me... Then on Sunday we were at a family party and the same fealing was coming over me and I was looking over my shoulder to make sure no one was there... Today at work I'm not sure if I was more scared that I thought that I was going too get fired why I don't know, and the hole time I was shaking inside and my thoughts were everywere. I thought I was starting to feel a little better at the middle of the week but the weekend turned everything upside down.. What scares me the most is I don't want my kids too see me this way, they are my whole world as is my biggest supporter my wife...