Thank you all for your responses. At this point I am not sure what the answer is for me. I know that all movement requires learning and with that comes fear. I simply am unsure at this point if I can make a commitment to volunteering, which is where are the pushing comes from.

This therapist promised me once before that I could set the pace of my process. That she would stop pushing and take the ques from me. I find it so disheartening to realize that she has forgotten her own promise.

Tomorrow is therapy and I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I feel that I have to prepare a suit of armor or at the very least a shield ...