I tend to feel the same way when my T is gone. I am fortunate that he tells me where he is going and when he will be back. I still cry when I leave his office the last time I see him before he leaves. Fortunately, he tells me that he always has his laptop with him and I can email him anytime. It just may be longer before he responds.( he travels a lot to speak about sexual trauma, and sometimes he just goes somewhere warm to lay on the beach) You are not alone. I feel empty when my T is gone.