Tomboy,

As all adults over 20, we have been 15 and I can truly attest that it SUCKS!! When I was your age, I had an emotional meltdown, contemplated suicide and such. I actually went to my parents (actually aunt and uncle) and told them I needed to go away because I knew I wasn't well. The reciprocated and found me a Psych ward inside a major hospital for mental health treatment. It was the life saving 2 weeks of my entire life.

At that time, I was struggling in a private school and dealing with abandonment from two parent loss by aged 10. My father died as a result of alcoholism. I was forced to live with my very old fashioned aunt and uncle and have to say that in some ways being with them helped me, and yet scarred me for life.

I was in a "children are seen and not heard" environment. Can you imagine? Maybe you are in something similar. I am new here so I am just trying to shed some understanding on what that age meant to me, and how completely wrecked I was. I did get help, and have been able to overcome some of my very heavy obstacles.

Oh, I am 48 now!! Life gets better when you are able to be in control of who and what you are!