Justgivealittle,

My main message here is to allow yourself time to work through this, make sure you have a good therapist who understands PTSD and you can build a trust in and feel safe with and make a commitment to yourself. Make sure that you also have a good pdoc too that doesn't leave you hanging in limbo either.

Make up your mind that you are going to allow yourself to work through this slowly and also work on learning ways to calm yourself down and self sooth and not be frightened and unknowingly feed into the emotions that come forward. Make sure that you have a safe place to retreat to where you can go and relax and calm down and even rest when you feel overwhelmed and tired. Do NOT allow yourself to feel like you have to tend to the needs of others right now. Other people need to learn that you do need space and their support and that they cannot make demands on you at all. It just has to be that way, simple as that, no questions and no pressure on you to feel you have to get yourself back together for them somehow and this includes the boyfriend.

Once you get that understood and the pressure is off, it makes so much difference in your ability to actually help yourself and just focus on what YOU need to find your way through and past the PTSD. And ofcourse you can come here anytime you need for support and just to hear, you are not alone and you can work through this.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes