i can see from what you have said that you T can be very reassuring.wnd that he is trying to tell you he isnt going to abandon you and he has faith in you that you will at some time be able to be stable and be able to develop relationships other then with him.i bet it is hard to see now but do you thnk you could trust him a little in this..also i agree do something nice and calming for yourself tonight .you did good