I feel so alone most of the time. I know a lot of this stems from my abuse and abandonment as a child. I don't feel loved and it's hard to open up to people. I am soooooo angry right now. I was on another forum and about two months ago, I was writing about something totally unrelated when one of the moderators reamed me and attacked me telling me I had a problem and she stayed with an abusive husband for 30 years (and she is proud of this??) and knows all about abuse and told me that I needed to get myself together and my sons were abusive. Well, I waited a day, then very carefully and respectfully replied but she attacks me on anything I say and this is why I'm here. I can't stay there.

The thing is that I became friends with another woman and listened to her petty ******** for hours and used up all my minutes. Then I come to find out that she is only friend on the forum with my nemesis but calls her all the time to encourage her. My son is the hospital and I'm a mess but she's calling this *****. Okay, I never said anything to her because it would be petty to say "If you are friends with her, then I don't want to be friends with you" but she knows what this woman has done and still does to hurt me. I am going to tell her today and I know the response. But I am going to get it off my chest.

It's so hard finding good friends. I'm a wreck. I really, really liked this woman and really wanted to be a good friend and develop a healthy friendship and I can't now. To me, if a friend is attacked by someone, you act civil but you don't go calling that person and trying to be their friend.