Yea, I finished up editing four papers yesterday for a writing portfolio. Turned the portfolio in today. Went to class last night, did all my homework in class, turned everything in, all I have left to focus on for that class is the final exam. So I did get quite a bit accomplished yesterday, and I'm working on research today for a final report in my writing class. Taking a small break right now, I've managed to get an outline done, found some good sources for references, wrote the introduction to the paper. I'm chugging along, making progress.

I wish I had the same type of motivation to stay sober as I do to get all of my school work completed, though :\ I got a bit intoxicated last night after I stopped working on homework I pushed cravings away for the day, then let it take over once I felt I got enough accomplished. The stress is just piling on at the end of the semester and I am so close to graduation, I need to keep my head clear, but I just let myself cave in to the pressure. Some days are easier than others, yesterday was not one of those easy days. I want to learn how to harness my positive motivation for school and work toward staying sober, I'm not sure how to go about doing that though. I'm not even sure if that's a realistic possibility. To be honest, I'm not even entirely sure what it is that keeps me from cutting anymore. Probably the substitution with drugs, which is something I want to get out of my life, but I feel so powerless

Well... back to research and writing x_x