rain it seems like with your vacation and hers you have gotten into a place that the only thing that will satisfy you is for you T to cancel her trip and stay with you.i sounds painful and like you are so stuck and feeling like nothing is going to make it better because she isnt going to cancel her trip.is there anything we can do here to help.i bet it has been hard to not see her for so long. i would do what you can e-mail write to her a real letter,make her a card.do things that will maybe keep her in a positive frame and maybe that will help keep her in your hearti'm sorry this is so hard