thank you bipolarbear and thank you january.

I get real mad sometimes. Sometimes i am so mad. sometimes i want to hit things but the nice woman wrote me a lette.r she said that i didnt have to hit people anymore.She said that if i just hit people then it isisnt the same as if i write how angry i am and why. I only hit one person ever that girl from school. But i hit things sometimes. Cause its not fair that I have to go tell all my embarassing secrets infront of a judge. But, i dont want to hurt people. Today instead i hit a pillow. I hit it ten or twenty times. but i still let my anger out. Its scary thinking that if i get angry. Because what if i hurt someone? Thats why i stay quiet mostly. Im always scared ill hurt someone. one time when living with my nannie she went in the bathroom and we were arguing. she was sitting on the toilet which was right behind the door to the bathroom (it swung that way) and i didnt k now.. charged in and the doorknob hit her on the forhead and made her bleed on the forhead. I cried I didnt know she was right behind the door. Then she died and I didnt get to tell her. Do you think she knows?



I need to figure out how to be mad without hurting others.

Please noone be scared of me. I would never hurt you. But i think of himand I just get so mad