Hi all...

been a while since I have posted...I guess cause things were kinda ok and manageable but after a weeks arguing with husband and onset of depression, I really need some support.

I have an overwhelming feeling of lonliness. I have a few 'friends' but noone I can really connect with. I don't even know if they qualify as real friends. Argh anyway, I am so lonely and feel trapped in this horrible hell called life. Its never ending. I am 31 and all I can remember is mysery, torment and abuse. I can't sleep and eating enough to feed a small army.

I am also having severe abandmonment issues...I am scared the few so called friends I do have will up and leave me Maybe they should. I am no good. I keep calling them friends but really, all I have is 3 friends...so pathetic is that? I really feel like a loser