Oh Essex I am so sorry that happened. It hurts. It cuts especially when it comes from someone that you consider a friend.

I have had a lot of personal experience regarding how horrible girls, young women and women are to each other, so I understand how you are feeling ... I have been back stabbed, bullied, put down, tricked, manipulated, lied to, disappointed, hurt deeply, and on and on, by supposed friends.

I look back on it now and I see how painful it was and how much it hurt me because I let them get to me. My self esteem was already low, I was vulnurable, so it was much easier to believe the lies (negatives) than to brush it off.

Especially when it came from my own mother

As with Open Eyes, I've learned that these people were insecure, jealous, aggressive, and the only way they knew how to feel better about themselves was to hurt others / put others down / manipulate and back stab.

As I mentioned before, you are beautiful. You are lovely. You are intelligent, brave and kind. You reach out to others here, and share,

...and I am so impressed with how you ask for help when you need it! That shows me even more how wonderful you are.