Hi. Yes I went, and it was scary, but I survived. You are very right.
I did feel sick and I wanted to leave, but I didn't. Sends shivers down my spine just thinking about it. I am so scared that I will say something dumb around new people. Or that they won't like me.
But I dread everything at the moment so I don't know what I like and what I don't like. Everything is scary and everything is confusing. I feel worried all the time about whether I am doing the right thing or not. It is so annoying.