Hovering on the edge of a major panic attack at the moment trying not to let it suck me in. My mind is running everywhere with a mix of focusing on what I'm trying not to focus on and with all kinds of different questions. Waiting on some medical test results; and then have more tests next week and more results to wait on and it's all for serious stuff so I keep being scared and nervous. T says keeping myself busy is the answer and not thinking about what may or may not be and I know that makes sense but it's so hard not to worry. Not sure why I'm writing/?? maybe for company ...