What does she think you are lying about, Alex? Asking to talk with your mother and family about how lonely and sad you feel is not "too much." it just doesn't make sense. Do you go to school? isn't there a counselor you can talk with?

I know I said this before, but I'm going to suggest it again because it's the best thing I can think of if your family truly will not or can't hear the extent of your grief.Try to find someone--a teacher, someone--who will give you time & will hear you.

Please, Alex--find that someone. She/he is your lifeline. That person is somewhere but you are going to have to take some risk to find him/her. You must meet someone new, in your neighborhood or at school perhaps.

Keep posting. Keep trying the grief links. There may be a local connection with someone through one of those.