Feel a lot like FireBird with some differences. It's weird. It's like I'll be hopeful that my thoughts will go away, then only 3-5 hours later I'll be crying because I feel hopeless that they won't. I don't know what's happening to me. My suicidal impulse rate has moved up a bit. Now I'm thinking about it once per day according to the records I'm keeping. It really sucks because the weather has been pretty nice lately... I don't know... I've been worse, but I've also been much better..... Eh...