today started badly i didnt want to be awake on my own so i woke my hubby up it was 10am took him a while to wake up as he fighting going to bed and asleep at night, i struggled to stay up last night ended up in bed by 11 but hardly slept at all at 6.30am this morning i got my son up gave his meds let him watch tv and eat his breakfast then he went to the bathroom by 7.20am his meds are working and hes rweady for a day at school by the time my oldest had gone out the door at 8.05am i was past tierd so read a book but i think with everything that goes on here this book was not the best book to read , when i finished it it was comming up for 10am , were we came in , i have an appointment at one with sons social worker while hubby goes to his pc course, then this afternoon i have an appointment with a councillor i took this appointment even though its a bloke as i felt i need to talk to someone other than here and doc, i could of waited untill july to see a female but i am going to give a bloke a chance, then i have to go to work, work that i dont enjoy anymore dont want to be there but were is the money going to come from if i dont carry on working, i have said i would give work a mth to see if it inproves but its taking a lot out of me at the moment, and now hubby thinks hes done something wrong, i have tried to explain but his depression is making it hard for him to understand,
i just want to be held loved and wanted