Thank you everyone for your support! Things are so tough right now and I don't know what to do. I started crying last night and feel like crying this morning and am about to because I feel like I can't get through this. I woke up with nightmares again and I'm so sick of it. I have an anniversary Monday and I just don't want to deal with it at all. I'm so tired of this and I'm so sad and the idea of Monday coming gives me anxiety and makes me sad and want to just...... take it out on myself because I feel its my responsibility and fault. I don't know...