I just in the last month got a descent Pdoc and a medication that works for me. I still one day hope to be med free. Just a preference of what I want going into my body and mind. There are certainly other approaches to being a stable functioning person. I hope to one day acquire the ability to utilize one of them. Until then I am feeling well from being on Abilify. I believe it saved my life. My new pdoc is amazing and he listens and understands. So glad to have found him because I was at the end of my rope with docs and pills. Hope you find your happy medium.