My perception on life is askewed with its struggles and banal day in day out bordum.. I do not try in school nore do i care to, i should care but i am so scarred of growing up... I dont know if i can do it. Things seem so ****ed up is anything in life good? My mother was raped and is a immature judgemental ***** who abandoned me and my sister when my sister has a terminal illness and only has a certain amount of years to live. And i am close with her, My step father was abused and is a **** to. My father used to drink and has anger issues and used to be beat and he is uinhappy everyday of his life with the crazy horrible five children that drive him nuts andthe little amount of money he makes. My step mother has panic disorder and likes to remind me of how much i am unworthy of everything and how much of a burden i am to my family, and i am a depresed suicidal 18 year old to scarred to grow up bcs it seems like the whole world is ****ed up..My grandmother married a millionair and found our that she is cheated on all the time but has nothing without him.. seems like all my friends want to kill themselves it seems astho life seems like a *****? Why do we all do it? does it get better because it seems as tho everytime i ask that question i get silence. that ******** that life gets better is for the naive minds. i am not a naive mind i am to wise for my age and i suffer for it..Does anyone have anything for me..?