Thanks for your input guys.

Notcrazylikeyou: What you say makes perfect sense....to be happy alone before seeking out new friendships. Yes, even the thought of it seems utterly daunting but I also believe this is needed before I can give myself fully and for the right reasons. I thought that new connections is what I needed to be happy but to be honest, if it wasn;t this situation, I would be blaming another. Will speak to my CPN about this.