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Leed:

Interesting perspective there on the inner secrets - why wouldn’t I want my relationship partner to know those things? I’ve always thought of relationships as basically the only place where I could be authentically , open-book me without needing to hide information about who I am or my past.

A few of those things seem plausible, though. My best friend does know more about me than my ex-girlfriend (although that wasn’t the case when I was in a relationship), and it seems that my best friend has remained talking to me for far longer than anyone else has. Girlfriend only lasted about a year - best friend has lasted 5 years.

Wow - I never had a relationship like that with my sister. She was barred from being around me by the police and we both have done horrible things to each other that almost ended in jail for both of us. I’m the younger brother and wasn’t cared for at all. I will do everything it takes to never see her again. Ever. She is the devil. Even my mother won’t be around her without a body guard and the police had to be present at my dad’s funeral to keep everyone safe .

It’s just when I think about it she says that I am such an awesome person and then says she doesn’t love me like that and the two seem incompatible to me? . Apparently I’m not that great it seems! Most women don’t like me, either. It’s so hard. Sometimes it feels like what is the point? . Might as well just be alone because that always seems to be the inevitable outcome . Currently I spend about 98% of my time alone in my office . Quite a sad life…

lol! I love the eek in that comment about over-analyzing . How can you be so sure that it will happen? . It just constantly seems like whenever I do anything with anyone I am shunned, ostracized, rejected, and whatnot. I’m socially challenged. And it is like, “What the heck is wrong with me?” .

dark_heart_x:

I am male. However I do not have male friends. I don’t associate with men. Honestly, no offense to males here, but I have a significant trust issue with men. Nobody in my life is male. And I don’t have friends at all unless through PsychCentral and email. Other than the Internet I am almost always alone . Haven’t been successful meeting others near me.

“Loneliness over time has physical effects and can wear your body down just like disease.” I have dealt with this everyday since a child! .

“Where do you think the idea of family comes from?” I have no idea . I hate being around my family and in a few years will hopefully have nothing to do with anyone related to me again. My ideal family has always been a loving girlfriend - that’s it.

What does it feel like to love someone romantically, though? How do you know if it is a romantic love? I find understanding all of this so weird! When I was in high school the first person I asked on a date was my teacher! As horrible as it might sound, I really don’t understand this stuff. I don’t know what romantic love is. I don’t know what friendship love is. It’s all so confusing!

Leed said that best friends and romance are different? You’ve said them to be the same?

Generally speaking I have always believed I would end up alone. Ever since a child I believed that I was unlovable, and it is a frequent feeling now, too.

I do suffer from the ‘disease’ of loneliness, though. Spend most of the day talking to myself and typing. I haven’t had a hug in years…literally. Everything I do I do alone. Don’t have any friends or anyone close to me to be with .