I am sorry, I didn't see your post this morning. ((((justgivealittle)))), I am sorry you are having a tough day today. I know what you mean about how your are feeling I have gone through this myself. I know it is hard and even exhauting and yes wanting to cry is also a part of it. Even though you think you should be blaming yourself, DONT LET YOURSELF FEED INTO THAT. Believe me, your emotions are really out of sorts right now and this is not your fault. You have to allow yourself to just slowly let this pass, and it will. This is going to take some work, therapy and time but you will slowly get through this.

Can you take some time to go for a walk or maybe a drive to help yourself not just feed into dwelling on this day. Don't let yourself feed into it sweetheart. Also if you need to, take a long quiet nap and self sooth.

When is your next T appointment?

You can keep coming here if you need to too. But really do your best to NOT allow yourself to feed into the emotions that are nothing more than a question your brain is asking how to feel about all this. You will get that to calm down with time. And it goes faster when you allow yourself to self sooth and relax your breathing and let go to only the moment, one moment at a time.

((((Hugs to remind you to calm and self sooth)))))
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