hi justgivealittle
yeah i can relate, i haven't cut in a long time but i do hurt myself in other ways to punish myself when i feel i deserve it, so yeah i get it.
it's good you haven't cut in months but i would worry about the headbanging (possible brain damage).
do you have a support system in place ...folks you can turn to without judgement ... family, friends, counsellor etc?
you can always pm or em me if you need, ok?