((((geez))))),

Ok, its alright if you didn't do the EMDR. You ARE with a new therapist and you were with the other therapist for a while and with that other therapist you took a while, but you started to engage life. And that other therapist encouraged you and she was somewhat of a mentor to you as well. It sounds to me that you had finally broken through and had someone there to provide and example of participating in something and gaining from it. As you did that geez you developed your emotions and began to realize that you COULD do just that. Somehow by doing that you discovered that you COULD tap onto your emotions and utilize them to build a safety net around you.



there is an old desire to be "avoidant".

Well, you have homework that says "get in touch with your emotions or search them and see what you come up with to talk about" in therapy. And you don't really know how to do that yet. You know how to build on an activity and develope emotions around that, but you still have not really figured out the past and the emotions that were in that. Part of that is because you shut them off so you could just exist and now you are starting to see that.


What does emotionally process mean? Well, when something happens that is upsetting in some way it means that for some reason we didn't have a healthy emotional foundation to process it, or it was something new that we never developed and emotional way of dealing with.

As a matter of fact, some of how your husband is dealing with his life right now? Well, he has unknowingly shut himself off and put himself in a low key simple daily routine that isn't really requiring him to challenge his emotions. And you ARE/HAVE BEEN and this is causing you to become displeased with him. And you began to come out with, "I don't know if the new person I am becoming is going to fit in this relationship/lifestyle I was involved in". Well, that is a normal healthy question geez.


You have to take time and evaluate what you are struggling with now geez. You have to let this therapist know how you progressed and are now finding it hard to explain to your family what this means. You DO deserve to thrive and enjoy yourself and these new healthy emotions that circle around the activites and new ways of interacting geez. So maybe that is where you need to focus here.

Take some time and write down where you are right now and what you are struggling with now. You don't have to go backwards and adjust YOU to fit into your family now. Your husband has to step up to the plate and find ways to support this newer healthier person you have become. You have to be given permission to continue with your progress, not draw back from it.

So think about that geez. Write down what you would like to see happen now and what you had been discussing a while back about your husband not seeing what has really taken place etc.

Open Eyes