Ok, ok, calm down, that is the PTSD talking in your last line. Sweetheart you have to not feed into those feelings. You have to give yourself a chance to work through this trama. Look, no one deserves to feel the way you do, no one. And you HAVE to set a part of yourself aside to come in to help comfort you when you feel like this. I know you are a good person, so use that good in you to talk to yourself and remind yourself that this is just some of the thoughts your brain runs through while working through the PTSD. Because that is exactly what happens you know. These are emotional questions taking place. Your poor brain is trying very hard to sort this out. You really deserve to take care of it and help it along, always remember that sweetheart. The human brain is such a wonderful thing and it really tries hard to help us get back on track. We have to let ourselves work with it and keep telling ourselves to be kind to ourselves NO MATTER WHAT we are working through.

I know about what you are feeling right now, I have gone through it, and I did learn IT DOES PASS. So don't feed into it NO MATTER WHAT. You will get through this part and gradually calm down.

((((Hugs, Hugs and more warm Hugs))))
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