Hey there and welcome!! Well if you are feeling outta sorts, you are def in the right place!! I myself am Bi-Polar II, and I can definitly lean to the angry side....Im not a doc or anything either....you need to get a proper diagnosis, but I think finding the right med combo will help with alot of that....Therapy helps too, but I feel that with being Bi-Polar, its alot of a chemical thing....therapy helps, but you have to have meds....I was a self medicator as well.....turns out Im not too good at it lol.....Im like you also, in that I dont have insurance....my PDoc luckily gives me a discount, and most of the meds Im on he either gives me samples, or makes sure to work with me and prescribe generics so its affordable....Im still trying to find the right med cocktail, but I must be onto something because I dont feel like killing people anymore lol....take care and have a good weekend....