Hi Heather, sorry you're feeling so low.I know what you mean when you say you're tired of being a burden, I do, but you know what? You're NOT a burden. We all share certain weights with friends and loved ones. At times your friend is a bit too tired and you need to shift the weight a bit to help her out so that she doesn't collapse, and sometimes, it's the other way around. I hope you'll continue chatting to us