That scares me too, that you have reached this point, please call 911, or a Suicide Hotline as soon as possible for help, we are not hooked into any sort of system like that, so no one here can physically respond.
Please hang on, you can get through this, almost all of us here have been near that point, or I confess for myself, even further than that
You need professional help, please call 911 or your local hospital, ask for a behavioural health department staff person, just do not consider dieing, please?
Take care now, and make a call to 911, get help as soon as possible !!!!!!!!!!!

DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON