I accidentally told my tutor about the stuff that happened in the summer. And she told the child welfare officer and she made me put in a request for the college counciller.

Havent got an appointment yet, but it may be soon. I'm so scared. The last time I saw a counciller I lied alot so that I could just leave...

...What if i do it again!?

I burnt myself with my cigarette 3 times tonight. I dont know whether thats better than cutting myself or not. Probably not. It's probably the same.

I need help. So seeing the counciller should be a good thing, but I dont know if it's going to help.

And thats my update.
Dunno what to do. Am I going to be like this all my life? It would seem so...

I need a friend. I'm not going to make one. The one who helped me through summer now has a girlfriend and doesnt talk to me. I'm screwed haha!

Hows everyone? xxxxx