Hi everyone.

When I first found these forums, I was depressed because I had issues with my boyfriend. I was having extrememe sexual difficulty and our relationship was suffering. I have since found a home here at the forums, we broke up and I haven't been with anyone since. That was over a year and a half ago.

This man has been the love of my life since I was 14. I am now 27. Finally getting him back was a dream come true, and I lost him due to my alcoholism. What happened since loosing him was I realized I had a problem and have now been sober for 13 months.

Last weekend we took a little road trip being the best of friends now, and drove straight back to town to the ER where I was diagnosed with MS. He has been there every step of the way, lending support, friendship and much needed company, staying with me a bunch of the nights because there was a possibility the medication they gave me could make me nuts. Everything was platonic until Thursday night....when we woke up in the middle of the night and were intimate. Wow...he was my last intimate encounter drunk, and my first sober...it couldn't have been anyone else. The intimacy actually helped me feel better and I looked up how intimacy can be healing for us...so we joke now that he's my "sex therapist" haha. We had a talk the other night, about what does this mean etc etc. It's beautiful that we can be open and honest...we're going to take it as it comes and see what happens. This was the first time I can remember being intimate because I wanted to..I've done a lot of work on my resentment at sex through working the program to stay sober, and I have to say it has worked wonders!! I was able to just enjoy it and enjoy him. Now I'll be on a journey to see what this means for us. Will we get back together? We don't know....have a lot to think about, a lot to consider. Will he want to be with someone who's sick? He loves me, I know that but I feel like this is a lot to ask. So what do I do when I'm unsure of something? Ask for the next right thought or action, and bring it to the table here. =) What do you all think?