I'm glad you were able to feel t's warmth in her reaction to you bringing a concerning thought to her! And that her laugh was encouraging to you, lifting you out of the feeling of the impossibility of it all. That sounds huge to me! And the lighter feelings.

I must live in fantasy land according to your t's explanation. I tend to see and experience so much in metaphors like your illusion to a garbage dump. T has never discounted any of them but works along with them. For me they are ways to express how I'm feeling in pictures... Most have changed as time goes by or morph into something new. I'm going to give some thought to them being considered fantasies....