My experience was very similar. A friend told me I might be dissociating. I did a lot of reading. I still wasn't able to admit that that was what was going on. I did look for a therapist who had a focus in DID. As the sessions went on it became more apparent to me that my "moods" (what I have always called them) were not common place and in fact were most likely alters. I had already been taking anxiety medication for panic attacks that began four years ago. I than began taking a low dose of zoloft. The thoughts/voices in my head slowed down. And once I began acknowledging the thoughts/voices as individual and separate from one another Things got less chaotic. Instead of a billion opposing thoughts at once I could understand them as a dialogue. This has enabled me to move slowly forward in therapy. I have not told anyone about my DID diagnosis and I am not sure I will. So if I did not have my therapist I would not be able to talk with anyone. And in order for me to work through my issues I need to talk with someone. Therapy was scarey for me at first but than I learned that therapy only moves as fast as I wanted it to. I hope some of this helps. And I hope you feel better. This is a good site. It also helped me in the beginning to see others having similar experiences. Take care