I am wondering if other people have dealt with the following issues in therapy and if so, how were you able to overcome them.

As I have mentioned in earlier posts I have very little recall of my life before the age of 9. I know about the dysfunction of my FOO because it continued beyond this age, as did the neglect, emotional abuse and sometimes physical abuse. Since I started therapy a few years ago I get these images or thoughts or memories, I don't actually know what they are. They are disturbing. I am afraid to discuss them in session if I don't know whether they are real because if they are not what does that say about me? What is wrong with me to have made up such gross images? I realize that I can't determine if they are real unless I talk about them, but what if they are not? Or what if they are? They don't feel real to me as I think about them now, but they feel real when I am actively having them. Does that make sense?

I think I'm compelled to talk about them because they won't go away but the fear of discovering that I have made this up and therefore have these twisted phantasies is paralyzing.