Likewater- "My T keeps giving me tests when i wish she would just really, really listen. Listen with her soul. Listen deep and stop trying to categorize me. Just listen."

I hope that you find a T like that. I used to have a T (and probably my current T is like this also, I hope, but can't judge yet), that just poured his entire heart into my therapy and just LISTENED to me. I had been through so many crappy therapists who all just either looked at me baffled or looked at me with eyes a glitter. He got me so far and built some serious foundation for me to work with when I finally did get diagnosed.

GypsieRosalie- I wouldn't worry about switching in front of providers. Honestly 9.5/10 they have no idea you switched anyway, because average providers aren't trained to notice. My psychiatrist never noticed and I was even diagnosed prior to coming to him. Although I did a basic hiding of medical information, because I just wasn't ready to accept the diagnosis. So he didn't know. When I was more ready, more accepting, I ended up in a trauma unit, going in initially for my PTSD, although suspected DID. (Already confirmed, but I kept my mouth shut, I didn't want it to spoil their diagnosis at this point. I didn't want to look back and say "Oh well I don't have DID, they only followed what the first guy said". I didn't want to give my denial alter anymore ammunition.)

So I went to the unit and I was so sick at the time, that to people who specialized in the illness, they were actually shocked that people who didn't specialize, didn't catch on. I went years without a known diagnosis. They went back through old medical records (the previous DID diagnosis omitted, for some reason my system really wanted that hidden for many years) and eventually came to the conclusion that I didn't just have PTSD, I also had DID. After I left the unit, my inpatient specialist had a little "session" with my outpatient psychiatrist, who knew nothing of dissociative disorders, at all and he went on a mission to find out more.