Oh, MV, I'm so sorry you're in this situation.

I agree so much with all of what Open Eyes said above.

I've mentioned in messages to you before ... You are such an intelligent, gifted person, and you are old and able enough now to start living for *you*. I will be direct here, and I apologize if it ends up being hurtful in any way: You have a great life waiting for you, but I think that living with and supporting your mom is preventing you from living that life and being as healthy as you want - and deserve - to be. She needs to see a therapist for her grief and depression, and you need to start putting yourself first. The mom in me feels terribly that any parent would depend so much upon their own child. It is not your responsibility to hold her up.

You're on the edge of living a better, healthier life
... I see that in your posts. In your heart, you know you are capable of supporting yourself financially. Save up your money, move to your own place, and start a new phase in your life. You *can* love and support your mom - and more importantly, yourself - if you move into your own space.

Again, I apologize if that advice sounds harsh, but my maternal instincts want you to flourish, because I know you can.