Hello Pegasus! I don't know you well, but felt I wanted to reply. I only know you as that nice person who always welcomes everyone here.
I'm sorry you are struggling. That not caring about things sounds a lot like depression.
I hope you will keep talking about this, and I hope you feel better soon. I'm glad you shared this on here.
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dailyhealing
"Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it." - Helen Keller
Strange how people who suffer together have stronger connections than those who are most content. –Bob Dylan
“If you can't fly then run, if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.