I have a chance to go do some advanced training for cub scouts (I assisstant lead my son's den, there's actually several female leaders in our pack!! ).

It requires a physical and one of the check boxes is "Has no uncontrolled psychiatric disorders", so I am scared to try and get it filled out. I don't know what would be considered uncontrolled... 2 months ago, I attempted suicide, was very uncontrolled then as I was going through major med changes. Now, I am on meds and things are somewhat better.

I really, really want to do this training, but I just don't know if I can because of that.

I'm so tired of mental illness controlling my life!