(((Bluemountains)))

All of us have limits as to what we are and aren't willing to do. I can understand your feelings of obligation and duty, but do understand that there are professionals that can help make things go a lot easier for everyone.

I haven't had much time lately, but I used to volunteer for a non-profit local agency called Elder Network. I would go and visit, talk, read, do some chores once/week for over 1 year with a elderly woman. Other services are also available: bathing, dining, caregiver respite, errands, as well as taking them to church and elderly functions.

I highly recommend looking up services online that are available in your area and check into it. It might prevent a lot of dark, mixed feelings between yourself and others in the family. You do deserve to have breaks every now and then. To regain some strength. My Director once told me that I can't be there for others when I'm struggling with my own emotions. I had to work through my emotions before I could offer my sincere support and love to other elderly people waiting. It was hard for me to hear that ~ but she was right.

Very best wishes to you!